Thursday, April 26, 2012

Goodbye Mr. Gubbles...

Lilly's fish, Mr. Gubbles, died this morning. I cried because of the fish. Lilly comforted me because I was so sad. But, it is just a fish.

I cried in Starbucks. I cried in Costco. I just cried while trying to find a place for the eight cans of refried beans and one hundred green tea bags. But it is just a fish.

When my uncle died last week, and I traveled to North Carolina to say goodbye, I cried. But I also laughed, smiled and hugged many. The time wasn't all sad. It was family and love and so much more. We said goodbye and we are moving on with our lives.

I cry because others have lost so much more than a fish by way of cancer, war and disease. I cry because I will never see any of my grandparents again. I cry because one day I will lose my mom and my dad. I cry because I will continue to have to say goodbye many more times as the years progress.

I cry because Lilly's fish died.

Goodbye Mr. Gubbles...

You were a good little fish!



Anonymous said...

Mr Gubbles was only a fish but a very significant fish. Mr. Gubbles is a loss. And any loss is a loss. I always see sadness as a natural emotion. I am sad a lot. It is kind of a nostalgic loss, not debilitating rather a kind of tribute. It was Plato who said, "every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing, always find a song. My song is, "Mr. Gubbles, God bless you on your journey.

Anonymous said...

You come from a family who cries -
I actually think it is a beautiful thing! And, to be able to love and share a loss is a beautiful thing as well!

RK said...

I have missed this so much.
It was on my diet of reading. Welcome back hsppymommyblog.